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So let we just finished two games for volleyball in which I did not play in again. I haven't played a full game since last Wednesday and it is really starting to irritate me. Volleyball is my passion in life. I love it and because of this I had to choose a school in which I would be able to play it at. Since I am not over 6 foot and not a volleyball prodigy I chose division three hoping to make the team and play. I have never sat the bench my entire life and now I am realizing how demeaning it really is. I want to be on the court so badly I can barely contain myself. It is a bit ridiculous. So volleyball is not going well and it consumes all of my social time. So others are bonding while I am at volleyball doing nothing. So I am rethinking my decision process in choosing a school to play volleyball. I really would just like to go home for a while and take a break.